Joshua Ryan's Journey Cont....

This is a plea for those of you who have been praying for Joshua, please don't stop till he is home!!! This will be the 3rd time the hospital has told us that our baby will be coming home in the next few days and it is devistating when it doesn't actually happen. I don't want to be devastated again, I don't think I can handle it!!!!!!!!!!!!
We have been in the hospital now for almost 10 weeks and we have been there 10 weeks too long!!!!!! I am exhausted emotionally and physically and any other way you can think of :( I am tired of this rollercoaster that we have been living on for the last 2 1/2 months!!!!!!!
As most of you know the doctors told us that Joshua should be going home this weekend and that we will be rooming in VERY SOON! Well, last night and today Joshua would not drink a bottle, and when he was forced fed he would throw it up. The doctor wasn't happy with this at all, since Joshua was doing so well and taking 60cc like a champ! Now we are lucky if we can get him to take 20cc without throwing up. He said the fist thing that comes to mind is another infection, but the blood tests are coming back negative and we have had him on antibiotics for 10days now. He did have his Spinal Tap and MRI today so maybe that drained him? We just don't know at this point! So, they went ahead and put a feeding tube down his nose for now and we are just going to watch every feeding! The point is, Joshua will not be able to come home until he is taking 8 bottles a day of 60cc by mouth for at least a couple of days! So, we REALLY need your prayers that Sooner than Later Joshua will start bottle feeding again so he can come home SOON!
In the midst of my emotional breakdown last night, I had a thought that I know is not true but when I go out of my mind I think unrealistically :*
Basically I was fed the lie that Joshua was probably getting sick again because we all thought he was doing better and maybe weren't pressing in and interceeding for him as hard as we have been. Like I said, I know this was a lie from the enemy because I know there are still TONS of people praying and interceeding over Joshua's life. For those of you who are, THANK YOU!!!!
As soon as I had these tormenting thoughts I quickly remembered all of the text messages, emails, and myspace comments I have received from people who are praying for Joshua- that thought immediately lifted my spirit and I felt like I was being carried by all of your prayers! So Thank you so much from the bottom of my heart- Please don't stop; your prayer's, thought's, concern's, and encouragment's are sometimes the only thing's that get us threw the hardest times!!!!!
Love you All!!! Bless you, bless you, bless you!!!!
12/12/07 1AM
Well, it is 1am Thursday morning and we just received a call from the hospital that they found blood in Joshua's stool and ran X-ray's. The X-ray's were questionable so they have stopped feeds AGAIN and started IV AGAIN!! :( They are running some more x-rays at 8am and we are hoping they find NOTHING!!!!!! PLEASE PRAY FOR JOSHUA- that all the tests will come back normal!
The nurse said that because they had to stop feeds and start IV again, that the likely hood of him going home this weekend is not good :(
I KNOW THAT PRAYERS ARE GOING UP FOR JOSHUA AND ALL OF US, WE APPRECIATE THEM ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!